Sunday, April 29, 2007
when you are with mei'm freei'm carelessi believeabove all the otherswe'll flythis brings tears to my eyes
a star fell from the sky;
7:10 PM
Friday, April 27, 2007
wow im happy today. haha coz omg we went back to sn! the last time i went back was like, last yr sports day? haha so its been one year. and the sch is still ever so familiar. i feel like i know every nook and cranny of the school la. and i prob do. and even tho nobody looks familiar anymore coz i dont really rmbr e juniors, theres still the nice family feeling. it felt super surreal when i first stepped into the school. its the same place that i spent ten years in, the same place i can totally picture in my mind. and its the same place that i havent seen in more than one year. thats probably why it felt so surreal being in that surroundings again. like so familiar, yet so foreign. so many things have changed, yet so many things remain the same. the principals changed, there are many many new teachers, and the people have changed. but the place, the feeling, the young pple running ard, the pianos, so many other things have remained the same. haha that makes me confused. coz its different, yet its the same. and it reminds me of how much i have changed too. how i was when i was in the school, how i am now, how different i view things. it all reminds me of growing up. sometimes im sad to leave the times behind, but sometimes im glad to be older and be able to see things more in perspective. once a sn girl, always a sn girl. haha i think sn pple are quite distinguishable. if not the look, once you hear the way they speak you'll definitely know if its a sn girl anot. think sn is really a huge part of me, no matter how much i grow. its ten years of my life. out of seventeen. haha i suppose when im seventy the proportion will be lesser, but i dont think it can diminish the effect. afterall, it was ten years of my most formative years.
but its really good going back once in awhile. haha although not many pple went back this time, i think the whole experience was quite therapeutic. kinda reminds me of who i am, where i come from. gosh and the food is damn nice la. i feel like such a pig. but we were all stuffing our faces like we havent eaten in the last whole year. haha i had ORANGE BOWL!! it still tastes as great as ever. i miss it like mad man. why didnt i eat it every single day when i was in sn? lol. then i had ice tea. followed by a piece of chicken. a slice of pizza. and a fish fillet! gosh everything tasted so good. compared to bland, boring vj food. and really, i dont think i'll ever go back to vj to eat. like whats there to eat la. nothing that you cant find anywhere else. not like my fav ORANGE BOWL! gosh. haha even sn fish fillet tastes so much better than those in vj. which is weird coz i thought its e frozen kind. maybe diff supplier la. lol.
anyway sports day was pretty exciting. the cheerleading was nice. not as nice as previous years but abt one million times better than vj's [sorry kaili, but its true]. okay maybe one million times better than last year's cheerleading. coz i think this years one is quite good. anyway. yupp so it was really exciting. and the first thing that hit me when i stepped into sn, besides the surreality of it all, was the noise! omg i nearly went deaf la. all the little girls talking and playing at the top of their voices. and screaming when they were running down to the specs stand! oh gosh. i totally forgot how loud and high it can get. makes my ears hurt. haha and the cheering made my throat hurt. haha i think most of us havent cheered so much in a long time. i was screaming like mad even tho we werent sitting with the houses. haha but i missed the vj vs rj softball match. wonder how it went? lol. anyway im looking forward to the vj vs sa soccer match. think its gonna be pretty exciting. but why does it have to be on a mon?! clashes with gas la. testing my priorities is it. lol.
after sports day we went amk hub. wow it was flooded with pple. it was like vivo when it first opened. wonder if its gonna be like that always? we had to wait damn long to get a table at mos la. den i wanted to go toilet but the queue was super long. haiz. i hate going to overcrowded malls!
okay im going off now. hey everybody enjoy your weekend!
i try to think you dont mean so muchi tell myself i dont feel empty insidei resist the urge to talk to you every dayi fight the need to see you all the timei take out my tutorials to doand do you think it helps?HAHA.i still miss you after all.
a star fell from the sky;
10:35 PM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
before i forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIXIN! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to everybody else who shares this birthday. im sure there are more but i cant rmbr who.
anyway today was a funny day. haha to me la. it was quite an unusual day. and one filled with lotsa lotsa chitchatting. firstly on my way to school i met tsun wang at the bus stop. so i had company on my way to school (: which makes it less boring, even tho tsun wang still cant rmbr my name. haha. then, for the first time in quite some time, it rained in e morning so all the umbrella-less pple cldnt get to sch. lucky eunice had an umbrella so i didnt have to open my pink one (: you rock, girl! then there wasnt any assembly. we havent not had assembly for some time man. haha lessons were pretty normal. i was lost as usual during the chem lect and nearly fell asleep during gp. whats new? anyway after school i met kaili in e canteen and we had a looonng talk. abt alot of stuff. haha we talked for one hr plus can? lol den i was going up to find caroline when i met suhui. so i waited with her for her friend to come down. haha but when i left later her friend still hadnt come down. maybe she got lost? lol. den i went to e lib to find caroline but i cldnt find her! and she wasnt answering her phone! haha but i met yuhe and junxiang. haha so they gave me some company while i looked for caroline. in e end i discovered she was watching soccer. so i went down too. anyway i wanted to watch the match. CJ vs TJ! CJ won 1-0. haha. nigel was good (: he was super fast la. looks like all the mass pe does help ;) den there was a SA vs HC match after that. didnt stay for that tho. so i went to the bus stop. haha and i met stephy at the bus stop. we chatted for awhile den 48 came! lol den i realised raymond was at the bus stop too. so i had company all the way back to my house. one hr plus leh. but i time passes alot more quickly when u have company (: haha i really must thank all e 48 pple man. they give me company every morning. esp since now i know most of them. lol. this happens when u have an unreliable bus. HAHA. anyway it was nice talking to him. havent talked to him for super super long since i think hes always late/taking cab. and he was telling me abt needles and drips and blood and i was like eew. haha and yes, ming hasnt gathered up enough guts to go donate blood yet. but no, actually it doesnt really matter to me. but its ironic. i can, but i dont wanna donate. jenny cant, but shes dying to donate. haha wanna swop bodies or sth? lol. but anyway ive never felt any strong affinity or sth for donating blood so no, it doesnt really affect me. eew this reminds me of the video we watched during phy lect the other day. the one on lasik. gosh it puts me off ever doing lasik in my life. its damn gross la. how abt our eyeballs are bouncy? eeeeww. the surgeon was like bouncing the metal thing on the eyeball la. eeeeeeeww. okay stop this gross topic man. STOP.
anyway yupp, i enjoyed doing all the things i dont normally do. like long chats, watching soccer without ponning gas, having some company. i dunno. today i realised that i've been alone for so long that its abit weird having company. i mean e permanent kind, not e superficial kinda company. yupp. maybe im too used to being alone. i dont rmbr being like this last time tho. and now i have more friends who know me better than ever before. shldnt that mean i shld feel less alone? okay maybe it doesnt work this way. haiz. but i think its good to get used to it. coz nothing is forever. and since ure gonna walk ur path alone, whats e point of getting some company only to have to say goodbye to it later. oh gosh. i think i know why i keep some pple at a distance. coz really, i dont think i can take being hurt the same way again, even tho it was nobody's fault. but really, once is enough. more than enough in fact. and im tired of going thru e whole roller coaster ride again. one min im on top of e world, e nxt min u send me crashing down to hell. u think my heart is a trampoline ars. HAHA. maybe its just better to stay at one point and not fluctuate so much. so you dont actually have to deal with the bad stuff when it comes. but den you wont get e joy too. oh well. use cost benefit analysis! lol. im kidding. like, really. haha. okay my rants are starting to not make much sense to me too. time to move on.
so its sn sports day tmr. im looking forward to it (: its whats been keeping me going this whole week even tho its been quite a shitty week and im not gonna get what i want even after going thru the shittiest of weeks. but yupp, im looking forward to the sports day. think we're gonna have fun :) and its been a long time since ive seen all you sn pple. and today suhui asked me who were our monitors in sec 4 and i cant rmbr! i only recall sinyao, liwen, and jovena. and i cant rmbr who e last person is! gosh. if any 4d pple read this and rmbr, pls refresh my memory. and no, not by clicking the refresh button on top. tag me pls.
heres a nice song ive been addicted to recently, even tho its really quite old.
Superman-Five For Fighting I can't stand to flyI'm not that naiveI'm just out to findThe better part of me I'm more than a birdI'm more than a planeMore than some pretty face beside a trainIt's not easy to be me Wish that I could cryFall upon my kneesFind a way to lieAbout a home I'll never see It may sound absurd but don't be naiveEven Heroes have the right to bleedI may be disturbed but won't you conceedEven Heroes have the right to dreamIt's not easy to be me Up, up and away...away from meIt's all right...You can all sleep sound tonightI'm not crazy...or anything... I can't stand to flyI'm not that naiveMen weren't meant to rideWith clouds between their knees I'm only a man in a silly red sheetDigging for kryptonite on this one way streetOnly a man in a funny red sheetLooking for special things inside of me It's not easy to be me.love you. always have, and always will.
a star fell from the sky;
10:12 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
i think routine is quite a dangerous thing. although sometimes routine can make us feel safe and secure, i think it makes us forget whats important to us and it erases e significance of some things.
dont u feel that we always place more importance on occasions that rarely occur? like shooting stars. or the four girls going out tgt. or e whole gang sitting in a row. we always kinda dont regard the things that always happen as important. like the normal stars that shine every night for us. line and i going on dates. the four of us sitting in a row. things like that. just to make things clear, im not specifying anyone in particular okay. its just what i think.
we dont really miss the things that are routine to us until they somehow become not routine. like after we leave vj i think i'll miss hanging out with line every afternoon. i'll miss e conversations we have and the fun. haha but of course i dont realise it now because its sth i do every day now. but after we leave i dont think we'll be doing this so regularly. thats when it becomes significant. or like our sec sch friends. when we were still in sn i didnt really treasure the things they do for me and how i can talk to them coz i can do it all the time. now that i hardly see them, any chance we have of meeting up becomes monumental. haha i guess its the same for all the other pple i dont see every day. kinda sad but oh well. i suppose its human nature to take what we have for granted. and we really dont miss it until its gone. then we realise how important it was to us. i rmbr thinking that just after leaving sn and just after first three months. how every meeting, every chitchatting session, every sms, becomes so significant after months of not seeing each other.
well. i suppose just a reminder to myself to cherish every moment. and ming, dont ever take things for granted okay. rmbr how hard it was for you to reach this stage. haha actually dont think i'll ever take it for granted. i just hope you wont too.
haha heres a funny conversation i had with ignatius today.
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:no i shld thank your manufacturer
ming `you'll never know says:er
ming `you'll never know says:thats sony i think
ming `you'll never know says:let me check my part number
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:isit
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:i tot u fm some china company
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:or india
ming `you'll never know says:aiya
ming `you'll never know says:act im from blangadesh
ming `you'll never know says:shh
ming `you'll never know says:dont tell anyone
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:kk
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:i wont tel anyone
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:anyway its printed on ur box
ming `you'll never know says:yeah
ming `you'll never know says:but quite small so maybe pple wont see ma
ming `you'll never know says:if u dont tell them
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:kk
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:i wont
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:hopefully they wont look too closely
Take a step back, but leap furthur says:later u left on d shelf
ming `you'll never know says:HEY!
ming `you'll never know says:okay wait
ming `you'll never know says:i turn ard so e number faces the wall
ming `you'll never know says:then nobody can see
haha. okay everybody have a good week ahead!
a star fell from the sky;
9:24 PM
Monday, April 16, 2007
lets start the update from friday. haha it was a pretty good day. was expecting pw results and yupp, we got it. and during pe, of all times. okay i shall stop trying to sound so calm.
CONGRATS TO MY FELLOW DRIVE-THRU SUPERMARKET PW GROUPMATES!!
TO XINHUI, HANLOONG, JUNXIANG, AND OF COURSE, NIKHIL : WE ROCKKKK! GOOD JOB GUYS!!
CONGRATS TO THE OTHER A-ERS OF 06S48! GOOD JOB, GUYS!
CONGRATS TO THE OTHER A-ERS IN VJ AND ALL OVER SINGAPORE!
okay relax, relax. haha even tho its been one whole weekend i still smile when i think of pw. i suppose its like what mrs goh used to tell us in sec 4. when you've worked really really hard and put in your all and your work pays off, thats really the best feeling in the world. she kept telling us throughout the whole year. i think it helped. haha whether subconsciously or whatever. and i think its true :) dont you all feel so sweet now with ur As? haha.
okay moving on. so on fri afternoon caroline and i went on another of our dates. haha this time we went princess to watch meet the robinsons. must admit that caroline wasnt so enthusiastic abt the show at first. afterall, it wasnt our first choice show. we actually wanted to watch beacuse i said so. haha but i dont think she regretted watching :) it was really really nice and worth the money, even tho it was princess :)
the weekend was good (: and today was not bad too. only managed to watch the last part of the soccer but hey, we won! then dinner with line, ah and tiefu at parkway. haha we were having some funny discussion den the person clearing e plates gave us this weird look. haha. oh well. i guess thats all for today. okay thats all the updating for now. have a good week ahead :) and to all those with matches this week, good luck!!
you make me wanna hold you in the middle of the nightyou make me wanna hold you till the morning lightyou make me wanna loveyou make me wanna fallyou make me wanna surrender my souli know this is a feeling that i just cant fightyou're the first and last thing on my mindyou make me wanna loveyou make me wanna fallyou make me wanna surrender my soul.
its amazing how spending so little time with you can have this deep an effect.
a star fell from the sky;
10:37 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
let me note down one of my latest lesson on life.
the way things look really is the way we choose to look at them.
if we choose to be really optimistic and look at everything as half full den we'll really see e good side in everything, and be able to learn from everything, whether good or bad, that happens to us. you see everything positively, even the bad things that happen to you. you always think how it cld have been worse, but luckily its not and give thanks for that. also, you are always able to learn something from bad stuff that happens and that helps u become a better person eventually, somehow. haha most likely an optimist believes that whatever happens, happens for a reason and most likely its so you can learn.
but if we choose to be a really really ultimate pessimist den no matter how good things are, we'll never be satisfied and think we've got it really bad. like instead of counting your blessings when you've got many, you choose to look at everything that u wanted but never got. then you'll start to get really depressed and wonder why ur life sucks so much when actually, you've got a pretty good life. so you miss out on so much of your life because you're stuck at the things that got away. i guess thats how come pple who go through the same experiences come out differently. and it explains why everybody comes out differently from different circumstances. explains how some pple can make it, and some just cant.
its really all in the mind, i think. haha and i think that whether we're an optimist or a pessimist affects the way we live our life alot. like if u're an optimist you're likely to be happy everyday. coz ure just able to look at the good in everything. like oh so the bus broke down today. nvm, gives me a chance to practice my sprinting when i sprint into school! and prob sth like oh so its raining today and i dont have an umbrella. nvm, can walk thru e rain and shunbian give my uniform a nice wash. or maybe oh im stuck in a damn crowded bus in a damn traffic jam. nvm, all the better to look at all the motionless cars ard me and exercise my brain by permutating their car plate numbers until i get 23! haha. yupp so i guess thats how an optimist thinks. so as a result, an optimist has a happy life. haha but think how a pessimist wld react in similar situations. thats prob why a pessimist is always depressed. he/she makes himself/herself depressed by picking out all the bad things to think abt! and that prob overshadows all e good things so it seems like nothing good ever happens when it does!
haha so you're prob wondering why im posting such a long post on optimists and pessimists when u prob knew abt everything i posted alr. well. i just feel like. haha and all e things happened to me today. well not exactly everything. i got caught in a super heavy rain, got water splashed all over my skirt by some damn car, and got stuck in a horrendous traffic jam. but nope, i didnt bother permutating everything ard me to get 23. seriously! haha. think im not that of an optimist. but i think being an optimist is good. shall try to think positively more. but rmbr to still remain a realist. u dont wanna be going mad trying to find good things in everything when there isnt. shit happens, yes it does. u cant change the shit, but u can think how u wanna react to it. yupp.
so thats my life lesson of the day. i thought of some other stuff too but i suppose thats stuff for another post.
goodnight everyone.
Feels like forever
Within my heart
Are memories
Of perfect love that
You gave to me
Oh, I remember
When you are with me
I'm free, I'm careless
I believe
Above all the others
We'll fly
This brings tears
To my eyes
My sacrifice
a star fell from the sky;
8:38 PM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
this song has nice lyrics :) haha but i changed it abit before posting it. very very slight change only la. haha so the meanings basically still there.
Listen to your heart
DHT
I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.
Listen to your heart
when she's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell her goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
Listen to your heart
when she's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell her goodbye.
And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.
Listen to your heart
when she's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell her goodbye.
Listen to your heart
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell her goodbye.
a star fell from the sky;
6:23 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
here are some of the crazy pics we took during gp on...tues? cant really rmbr which day it was. but its e 3 str periods of gp day.
my and lines erasers with their new tattoos!
line and i and our erasers :)
the fantastic four doing cip! haha okay we were taking a break. ah and tiefu are not in e pic tho. we didnt have time for a pic with them. sorry guys.okay thats all the pics for now. haha today was quite funny too. went for the smun briefing thing early in the morning. okay not so early. coz somehow i screwed up e time and kept thinking it was at ten. so when caroline called me at nine [when we were supposed to meet] i was still at home la. haha but dad gave me an emergency ride :) so i got there okay.
so after the really long and draggy and boring briefing we went to yusof ishak hall for lunch. i had fish and chips and the fish was really swimming in oil la. oil sellers must have given nus vendors a huge discount on oil. prob like buy one gallon and ten gallons free or sth. or buy one gallon get the fish free! lol okay im digressing. after the lunch we went to eat ice cream :) super sweet [jenny! its sweet enough for us to get diabetes without u leh!] and nice but very very fattening too. anyway im feeling fat and lazy now. esp since i havent been exercising alot since trg has stopped. ohwells. shall try to be more active. anyway when we were on our way to buona vista mrt we met clovis! haha nice surprise :) we shall have a chalet at the end of e yr for all e ime pple! and play bridge and daidi the whole night through. lol. okay guys, we'll see abt that. hope we go through with it :)
this week is gonna be an exciting week. haha i hope we get our music fest tickets! i really really really wanna go this year! by hook or by crook. lol.
okay thats all for now. off to my grandmas house! enjoy the rest of your weekends! take care guys.
dont cry just because you cant possess the one you love.
for those who can, give thanks
but for those who cant, remember that if you truly love them,
you'll want the best for them, and it might not necessarily be you.
a star fell from the sky;
4:22 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
eunice says my last post sounds emo. haha so i decided to get myself a new email add. temp_emokid89@hotmail.com. haha. its temporarily emotional kid born in yr 1989. yupp. so after so many emo posts, heres a perfectly normal one.
lets start with my day. today was a good day. prob coz we were all already anticipating our long weekend. spent most of the day in a high, esp the afternoon. after sch we went down to newton to do cip for the breast cancer foundation. spent our afternoon folding fliers and stuffing them into envelopes. haha and we did it with a production line. specialization, of course, is more efficient than not specializing. we know this from econs, of course. we all rmbr the video we watched the other time abt specialization. right. anyway i had fun stuffing the fliers into the envelopes. and hurrying everyone else was fun too. and the paper airplane competition was fun too. haha i was getting super high la. kept making myself laugh. lol. jenny said i looked drunk. haha. and sihua asked me during chem lect if i had some vodka or sth la. but i realised that alcohol is not the only way to get high can. making urself laugh and laugh can get you high too. think must be some hormone ur brain releases when u laugh that makes u get higher and higher. haha. so good news for all the non-alcohol drinkers. another way to get high! but if ure not an alcohol drinker then i cant think of any reason why you might want to get high. haha but anyway, to each her own.
so after cip had to rush back home to change and rush off for yoga. which was good again (: i love yoga (:(:(:
and i just saw the photos we took on carolines blog. haha the ones we took when we were going mad during 3 periods of gp. the ones with the eraser! haha and i didnt notice that one pic was particularly nice. i dunno. i dont really find it particularly nice, but then everyone sees things in different ways. and somemore its her name, not mine ;) kidding la dear. dont whack me!
oh yeah. DISCLAIMER: im kidding abt that email k. dont really add that email on msn or sth! im off now. enjoy your long weekend everyone! its an especially holy weekend. Good Friday and Easter Sunday all in one weekend. have a blessed and good good long weekend!
think i posted this song before but let me post it again. i just realised how nice it is :)
Your skin,
oh yeah your skin and bones,
turn it into something beautiful
do you know
you know
i love you so
you know i love you so.
Your skin,
oh yeah your skin and bones,
turn it into something beautiful
and you know
for you
I'd bleed myself dry
for you I'd bleed myself dry.
a star fell from the sky;
8:44 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
im tired. like really tired.
why do we play all these games with one another?
why cant we just be frank and tell each other how we really feel?
why do we have to pretend we dont care when it really hurts inside?
why do we play with each other and let nothing come out of it in the end?
when are we gonna be brave enough to let someone touch us without being afraid of getting hurt?
when can we ever love freely without expecting anything in return?
i think even after a hundred million years we'll still be doing these things that hurt ourselves and others around us and we still wont know how to get out of this vicious cycle. dont you think the human race is a little hopeless sometimes? can you imagine, after 2006 years of evolution we're still stuck at this lousy place where everyone hurts but no one wants to stop it, or even admit it.
maybe this is called growing up.
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete?
A love that's so demanding
I get weak
a star fell from the sky;
9:11 PM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
yayy i finally went to cut my hair. haha i feel alot lighter now. and hopefully my bald spot will be gone. haha i changed parting anyway so you cant see it anymore. haha. forgot to take a before pic but heres an after pic.
new hairstyles! haha but we pretty much look the same. lol.
but somehow we look so diff from last time. haha but i think mimi looks like she has alot more hair now (: prob coz of the way the hairdresser cut. yupp. so thats all for now. have a good week ahead!
I'm looking at you through the glassdon't know how much time has pastall i know is that it feels like foreverbut no one ever tells youthat forever feels like homesitting all alone inside your head.
a star fell from the sky;
1:45 PM
my and lines erasers with their new tattoos!
line and i and our erasers :)
the fantastic four doing cip! haha okay we were taking a break. ah and tiefu are not in e pic tho. we didnt have time for a pic with them. sorry guys.
new hairstyles! haha but we pretty much look the same. lol.